The Pathway To Your Results

Spiritual Relocation

• Derick Grant • Season 2 • Episode 220

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We explore “spiritual relocation” through a personal story of loss, surrender, and rebuilding, and how releasing the old self opens room for a life on a new frequency. The past gets flowers, not blame; the future gets standards, not wishes.

• shifting from imposter syndrome to self-permission
• walking away from a draining legal battle to protect energy
• moving homes as a mirror for identity and frequency change
• collecting keepsakes, honoring the best, discarding the rest
• leaving victim consciousness for accountability and action
• why affirmations fail without aligned feeling and behavior
• paying tuition with losses to earn resilience and clarity
• surrendering outcomes to unlock momentum and options
• numerology patterns, timing, and trusting unseen support
• building instead of buying to honor energetic alignment
• gratitude and forgiveness as keys to releasing past selves
• practical focus: patience, consistency, and long-game planning


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Join today at dgmindset.com. That's dgmindset.com, and I will see you inside. Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the Pathway Results Podcast. It is your boy DG. Oh boy. Boy, oh boy, oh boy. What a season of life we are in, isn't it? This experience that we get to have, we get to try and navigate and remember. Kind of quite crazy when you think about it, that we forget. That we forget when we come into this world. We're playing a little bit of hide-to-go-seek with ourselves, trying to see how much of ourselves we can see. Some of us are seeing ourselves more than others. Some of us are seeing others more than we see in ourselves, but I won't get, as we would say, I digress. But today I wanted to talk to you. I wanted to share my story. I want to share some things with you. Hopefully, you see the parallels in your life, like I always do. Really, at the end of the day, when I started this podcast, it was always to share my life in hopes that it would help somebody else. I'm at a point in life now where chapters are being closed. And I know that if a chapter closes or chapter ends, you know the next one's coming. Good God. Oh my, we might as well go and get started now. See, sometimes we're so afraid of a chapter closing because we forgot. Remember, I told you this was a journey of remembering? See, you didn't remember that if a if a book, if a chapter closes, another chapter has to come in. And just because that book is over, that doesn't mean that was the only book in the series. Look at Harry Potter, look at Lord of the Rings, look at Taylor Swift, all these albums. See, everybody over here thought she was going to be done with these uh this this this tour. She go have another tour. You better believe. My point of this is that the story is going to continue on. So here I am in the season of life. When I start this podcast, um I've I've shared this many times before. I never really thought. First of all, I had imposter syndrome. Um I didn't think that if I started a podcast, somebody would want to listen to me, somebody would want to hear it. I didn't think I was important enough, and I didn't think I had anything valuable enough to say that would help anybody for it to be worth someone else's time. How many times do we do that? That we look at ourselves from a place of insignificance and we think that, oh, I won't matter, I'm not big enough, or I don't have enough followers, I won't make enough money, or I won't, and we won't even start it. We won't even try it. And I never will forget, I told you a story many a times before. Uh I got a call. I was outside with my kids. I got a call from John Gordon, the author John Gordon. He wrote the book, The Energy Bus. He called me on FaceTime. And I thought, this is weird. I don't even know this guy. This guy's called me on FaceTime. We knew mutual friends, and here he is calling me on FaceTime while I'm watching my kids outside ride their bikes. And he goes, Hey, you got a podcast? I go, No, I don't have a podcast. He goes, You need to start one. That was enough to give me permission from him to say, okay, well, I guess I do need to start one. Well, if he's telling me I need to start one, I need to start one. But here's what I'm telling you: you don't need to have permission for you to start something. You don't need to have permission from outside of yourself. You just had to go ahead and write your own permission slip. You had to go ahead and serve your own papers. But see, what the issue is, is we think that our papers, when we serve them to ourselves, they have to be recognized and validated and uh notarized by somebody else. They ain't got to be notarized by somebody else. You're the notary. You're the one who stamps it. You're the one who signs it. So here I am now in this season of life. It's 2025. I don't know what the date is, but it's today. October 6th. I'm recording this. And I'm I'm I've shared my story. We're I went through the spiritual wound, the sacred wound back in 2019. And it started many years before, but I've told you, the victim of fraud, you know, being an FBI confidential informant, and just absolute wild, just crazy stuff, contemplating whether or not I wanted even to live my life anymore. And I'll never forget when I moved into this house, I was in this legal battle with this quote-unquote business partner who stole everything, and I had my last money in my account. And everybody kept telling me, you need to fight it. You need to fight it. You need to, you need to uh you need to go ahead. Matter of fact, I'm gonna give you numbers so that way you can see that I ain't BSing you. He had, I told him he owed me money. I told him, I said, what you did with my family, you owe us. So he was like, okay, fine. He sent over an agreement, it was for$250,000. I had four lawyers look at it with people who I knew, and they said, Don't you sign this? Because if you sign this, the way this is written, you ain't gonna get a dime. And more importantly, if you sign it, you ain't gonna be able to tell anybody that you didn't get a dime. You ain't gonna be able to talk about it. This is why it's a non-disclosure. So I went ahead and spent my last$5,000 when I moved back. I spent my last$5,000 on a what I was told, a bulldog of an attorney in Miami, Florida. So I went ahead and spent this last money, and I'm like, yeah, I'm gonna fight it, I'm gonna get it. And then something in my spirit said, leave it alone. Let it go. And I was walking to the mailbox, broken, dejected, and I'm like, I don't want to fight this anymore. Because as long as I keep fighting it, as long as I'm gonna stay in that old frequency. See, I'm trying to start life over again. I'm here hollering if you hear me right now. I'm talking to somebody's soul right now. We over here still holding on to the old bullshit. We holding to the old property, we're holding on to the old relationship, we holding on to the old. We hold on to the old because we're afraid of what the new might entail. So I gave him that last$5,000, and probably about a week later I told him I'm done. And he was like, Are you kidding me? Are you crazy? You can win this. I said, There's nothing for me to win. There's nothing for me to walk away with and say, Oh, I won. I said, I'll just figure it out myself and I'll go ahead and pick myself up and I guess I'll go ahead and start this journey over again. Now I told you the story of the episode. If you don't know, you have to go back in the Rolodex of the Pathway to Results Podcast. And that's the episode when I told you the year before when we moved down to Florida, we had brought these washing machines down there in the dryer, and it sat sat in the in in the garage, and I said, What in the world? And then here we are moving back, and we got the washing machine and dryer just waiting perfectly. Unbeknownst to me, my spirit was guiding me. See, my spirit plays outside of the game. Just like yours does and everybody else's. See, it already knows what is needed. Your hard-headed behind is the one living through the ego self. Your hard-headed behind is the one thinking that the world is acting against you, but really, all of it was just a game to help you to remember just a little bit more before you left this meat sack, before you go ahead and retired and got down in that dirt. So here I am saying no, and I'm not gonna fight it, because I was ready to move on with life. Now that was 2019. And now here I am in 2025, and we're moving out of this house. And I have to say this, and if I get emotional, I apologize in advance, but I'm not apologizing for being emotional, I'm apologizing because you might not be able to understand what I'm saying. And I started to realize as I'm packing up. Wow, I feel a little bit of stress packing up. I feel a little bit of angst cleaning up. Now, one reason is you don't realize how much crap you hold on to over the course of six years. I said, What in the world? I still got this? I didn't even I didn't even know I had it. But then on a deeper level, I said, Oh, good God almighty, this ain't nothing but spiritual relocation. Y'all ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying right now. Some of us are spiritually relocating, and it doesn't mean that we change in houses. Sometimes we spiritually relocate because we change in lives. See, energetically, you move into a new frequency, but you still trying to hold on to that old stuff. So now here I am trying to clean up, and my week is busy this week. I haven't moved yet, but my week is busy with work stuff. And I'm like, man, I'm gonna have time to like break down the beds and put this in a U-Haul and do all this stuff. And I'm like, man, I gotta do this all by myself. And I asked Carly, I said, hey, do you think you can help me with like some of the heavy stuff? She said, Of course I can help you. And the reason why I'm saying that is because sometimes we don't have to move it all ourselves. Sometimes we ain't gotta carry it all ourselves. I had in my mind, see, that's me. I told you I'm working on it, but I have this program that I don't want to be a burden. I was scared to ask the person who I live with to help me. So this last couple days as I'm cleaning up and throwing stuff away, I'm realizing that I've been holding on to some things that they were never meant to be held on to forever. They were only supposed to get me to a point. And I'm realizing that this move is not also the end, but it's also the graduation, it's a rebirth, leaving behind a timeline, an old version of me that existed. So I think about the mindset I was in, the energetic state, the frequency I was in when I moved here. When I moved here, I was in a place of victimness. I don't even know if that's a word, but you know I make them up. Victim consciousness. I was in a space of woe is me, why is this happening to me? The world is against me. And I never took time to say, what is it that I can do? And then life forced me. Life forced me, it threw me down to the bottom. Some of us are down at the bottom right now. Life isn't trying to hurt you or kill you or put you down. Life is trying to say, girl, get up. Get up. You got something inside of you that has the ability to get up. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. My mother used to always tell me, son, don't you stay at that pity party you threw for yourself too long. Nobody likes when you stay at it. You know how it is when you go to a party, you go to a club. Don't nothing good happen after a certain time. And some of y'all know exactly what I'm talking about because you was the no-good that uh that was happening. Don't you don't you at me on this one either. But I said, goodness gracious, I'm holding on to old stuff. So as I'm cleaning up, I'm finding journal entries. I'm finding old books. When I was encouraging myself, talking to myself, trying to say, come on, D, come on, D. I'm finding old, old uh uh, I like to say the uh the awakening roadmap when I didn't know what I was doing. I'd gone through a spiritual awakening, never heard of it, didn't know what it was, thought I was crazy. I'm over here, I'm finding charts on numerology and spirit guides and all this stuff. I said, What in the world is all this stuff? I've kind of, not that I've moved past it, but that information is now kind of put in the Rolodex. But I remember where I was when I was going through this. And I said to myself today, good God Almighty, you ain't the same person you were when you came in as the one who's leaving. Y'all ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying. You went into your storm, you made it on that team, you got in that relationship, you moved into that house, but now it's time for you to move on to the next life. I'm here to tell you, if you're moving on to the next, that means you're not the one who came into it. You are not the one with the same mindset, you are not the one with the same victim consciousness. That is not you. And you know what? You know what got you to this point? All of those triggers, all of those setbacks, all of those hardships. So understand this. And I I sat and reflected. I said, I was in the shower today, I just sat there and let the water beat on me. I said, good God, you ain't changing, you ain't changing addresses. You changing motherfucking timelines, boy. You want a completely different timeline. Look at the life you were in six years ago and look at the life you're at right now. Look at the awareness that you have of yourself. You don't sit here and cry and say, Oh my gosh, why is this happening? The first thing you do now is you ask yourself, what is this inside of me that I was unaware of? Do we see how this works? So, now, for all my women out here, for all my ladies, now, I don't know if this is a woman thing. I just I just I don't know. I only live with one woman, so I'm gonna just go ahead and make a blanket statement. Carla had a Tupperware, a big old huge tub, and I said, What is all that? She's like, These are all of our keepsakes. I said, keepsakes? For what sakes are we keeping it? We need look, we over here trying to move junk. We over here holding on to this old stuff. All we gonna do is make more junk. She's like, Yeah, but this is all the special stuff. And I went and looked through it and I started to get a little emotional because I said, Oh. I remember that too. So the reason why I'm saying this is because sometimes we do have to hold on to the best parts of us. Don't throw it all away now. Don't throw it all away. And I said, okay, we'll go ahead and take that. As long as you help me move this redresser tomorrow, as long as you help me, I'll look I'll let you have this if you let if you help me with that. But my point of this is is we're all going to go through a season of transition. We're all gonna go through a season of change. We're all gonna go through a season a season of spiritual relocation. And the stress that comes with that, because people always say, man, it's moving so stressful. I said, Yeah, I know. I don't even know if it's moving, it's the fact that I got other stuff, I got work, I got life. But it's really not even that. It's it's so heavy because the version of you is dying in the process of relocating. I remember, I remember when we moved into this house. I remember the state I was in, the embarrassment, the shame, just being less than. I remember, I remember how I felt, and now this newfound awareness is I'm leaving. I can look at this house and say thank you. I can look at this move and say thank you. I can look back on all those things that have happened to put me in this place to say thank you. So, this is the part about spiritual relocation. This is the part about you moving into this new frequency. You better make sure that you you bestow the sprinkling of gratitude upon the past. Because if it was not for that, if it was not for that program that you're still holding on to that keeps you stuck, if it was not for the wounds that you still have within you, if it was not for that, you would not be where you are in where you are going right now. So as I'm telling you this, you know that comes with a great responsibility anytime that you spiritually relocate. There's gonna have to be a recalibration. There's gonna have to be a recalibration. Hear me when I say this. I realize that the issues that got me in that position to begin with six years ago, I couldn't keep the same mindset if I was gonna get myself out of it. I was doing vision boards, I was doing everything, y'all. Yeah, you hear me when I say, I look, I found a journal. Where is it? Oh, it's in one of these Tupperware things, but I found a journal. It was a 369 journal. 369. I was writing this stuff, my affirmations, three times in the morning, six times in the evening, meaning afternoon, nine times in the evening. And I'm sitting here writing and writing and writing, and I'm like, it's not. It didn't happen. It didn't happen. Why didn't it happen? It's because you were doing it from a place of not really truly believing and knowing and aligning. See, there was no aligning. I was writing it. That was just the action of it, but I wasn't feeling it. So that's why I'm telling you you gotta have a recalibration. I used to sit here and have vision boards of, I want the property, I want my house to look like this, and I want this, and here's what I want my life to look like. But all of that was just hope. All of that was just a wish. No, no, don't get me wrong, a wish is gonna help you, but a wish ain't gonna get you to the finish line. At some point, you're gonna have to say, I gotta be it. And I gotta reflect and ask myself, what things do I have to do in order to be it? What things do I have to change in order for me to be it? More importantly, what things do I have to let go of in order for me to become it? So as we fast forward, I was going through all these things, all the I went and bought some land, bought some land, got involved with another, another quote-unquote business partner that mirrored the one, mirrored the one that got me in the position to begin with. Bought this land, I said, I'm gonna have some land about a year and a half in. I said, man, I'm gonna go ahead and get rid of this land. I sat there and paid for this land for a year and a half and never did nothing with it other than lose some money. Now, the reason why I'm saying that is sometimes we do take some L's on the way to where we got to go. Y'all ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying, right? I might as well go ahead and get off. Y'all think y'all ain't gonna win. You think you only gonna win. You gotta catch the L because the L is where you pay your tuition so you can learn. Do you see? Y'all ain't trying to hear nothing. Let me go ahead and stop, take a pause, because they ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying right now. You ain't gonna win every single time. It's not gonna be hunky dory and success every single time. We get to the finish line and we're like, oh, wow, it was so great. No, it wasn't. Stop telling all bald headed lies. You know you lying right now. Don't you go on social media trying to act like it was all hunky dory. I'm gonna go ahead and keep it real. It wasn't. There was times I look, bought land, wasted money, didn't lost money on it, sold it, got rid of it, went and put earnest money down on another house because I was like, we gotta get something. Went and bought a house, put earnest money down. I put money down on a house that I didn't even want. You know, you tell me where they do that at. I felt responsible. I was carrying the guilt, I was carrying the burden. So now you know how it is when you make a mess, you're trying to hurry up and clean it up. You're not even thorough with it. Let me go ahead and clean up. So that way they won't say anything. No, go back, get you some cleaner, put some elbow grease into it, and do it right. Mom, I know you listen to this right now, and I know you what you're gonna say. My mom used to always tell me, she'd tell me to clean up my room or she'd tell me to do something, and she'd come in and check it. And I'm like, man, she's always on my back. She won't just leave me alone. Mom, you know I used to say that. But then she would look at me, she'd go, You do realize if you don't do it right the first time, I'm gonna make you do it again. See, I was hard headed. I was hard-headed. And my mom was acting as a vessel. She was acting as a vehicle, as a messenger, as a uh the transcriber for the universe, for God, the source, the creator. She was trying to say, if you ain't doing it the way it needs to be done, that means you ain't living up to your greatness. And life doesn't settle for you not being great. Do you hear what I'm saying? It doesn't settle for you settling for yourself. It doesn't work that way. So if you keep settling, life's gonna say, nah, we ain't gonna do it, do it again. And this is what I kept doing. I kept doing this over and over and over again. All why? Because I was doing it from a place of fear. So I'm gonna let you into a little life, a little, you know, I'm gonna let you into this. So I was in such a place of desperation. I talked to a loan officer, and a loan officer was like, well, uh right now, you're not, you're not in a place right now where, because you're self-employed and we have to do things a certain way, and uh you're not in a place right now where we can give you a loan for a house that you put money down because unless somebody co-signs for it. Now I have to say this to you, I'm gonna be transparent, honest. I approached my parents because they were the only ones. I said, Hey, you guys want to help? And then after a year, that's in our name, you won't spend any money, won't be in. And my dad was like, My dad gave a shirt off his back. He always had a saying. He said, I will give you a shirt off my back as long as you don't try to take it. Meaning, don't you try to take advantage of me. I'll give it to you, but don't you try to. So I came to him, I had to humble myself, said, Dad, here's the situation. My dad says, Okay. Okay, look. You got me on board. But you're gonna have to talk to your mother. Dun dun dun. You know what he said to me? He said, Son, don't get your hopes up. Don't get your hopes up. See, I told you many a times, my mother, I love my mother. Oh my goodness, I love her to the core of her being. I did not always understand her, but mom, my mom's, my mom's love language has always been accountability. I am cut from the same cloth as her. And what he was saying was, don't get your hopes up, because mom might not fly for this one. It's not that we can't do it, but now I realize what it was. So anyway, I talked to my mom and she was like, she was asking me all these questions, all these questions that made me feel less than, all these questions that were bringing up these wounds, all these questions that made me feel like I wasn't good enough, and it was triggering for me. And then she said, I don't feel comfortable doing this. You know, I'm being honest with you, it hurt me at the time. I'm not even gonna lie, it actually broke my heart. And it broke my heart because I had all these stories in my mind. Well, you don't really love me and you don't really care. And if you did, you would help us out because you know what we've been through and all this. You see, I was playing the victim? Never once did I ever look at it and say, You, what is mom actually trying to help you to see? And it took me about two weeks, and then I did to who this was this was some supreme accountability. You know, I told you that accountability is a big old pill. This pill was about the size of a water jug. I was trying to, it was like watching a snake trying to eat an egg. You know, see you see that you see a snake, snake's jaws dislocate and try to, you know, see the shape of the egg. I was trying to swallow this pill of accountability, and I had to do it. And then I realized what it was. My mom was basically saying, son, we can't let you, we can't, we can't allow this for you to spiritually bypass the lesson that you need to learn. See, if I help you out, then you ain't really gonna learn. If I carry you right now, you ain't really gonna strengthen your spiritual muscles to keep on moving. You see how this says? You see how this works. So my mom, she she she said no. And at that moment, I felt like I hit rock bottom. You anybody ever played sports and you hurt your ankle, you hurt something, you roll your ankle, and then all of a sudden, you know, you're you're back healthy, and then you roll it again, the same ankle. It hurt worse than the first time when you rolled it. And I felt like I'm a failure again. I was almost there. I put the money down. We finally, I'm I'm in my mind, I'm about to reconcile the past. And then here it is. No. But this time, the same situation's happening in a different way. But this is why I try to tell y'all the same man, the same woman never crosses the same river twice. I was a little different this time coming back around. See, it had been four years now. I'm a little different. So I said, you know what? What do we got to do to go ahead and change this? I was accountable. I went and sat down with the accountant. I went and met with the uh the loan officer. He said, Here's what the numbers you gotta do, here's what you got to do for the next year. Meaning, I played the long goal, the long game. I didn't sit here and get caught up in the short term. I'm here to tell somebody this. Sometimes we get so focused on the short game. Stop being in a hurry to run down the hill and be thorough with it. Take your time. Stop being in a hurry and doing it in a way that you know good and well the universe is gonna make you come back and do it again. So I said, okay, what do we gotta do? The accountant said, here's what you gotta hit, here's what you gotta do, here's the things you gotta get to, here's the numbers you gotta go ahead and manifest manufacture in order for this to work here in a year. Now we had a little saying back when I used to play ball. It ain't nothing to it but to do it. Let's go ahead and get to the chicken then. Let's go ahead and do what we gotta do. So I got on my grizzly, I got on my grind, I started focusing only on right now and the things that I needed to do, but I kept the goal in mind. Do you hear what I'm saying? A lot of us focus on the effect, we focus on the goal. You ain't gotta worry about the goal. Why don't you focus on the process, focus on the cause, and you will always get there. So now that I had the blueprint of what it was or where I was I was going, now I had to create. Now I had to open myself up to the infinite divine wisdom and infinite divine creativity that teems through all of us. Good God almighty. Look at this world that we're living in. Now I know the world's got some BS in it. We know that. But this world also has some creativity and creation that quite frankly, we are doing things that mankind has never seen before. Do you not know that that same creativity flows through each one of us? But you can't do it when you come from a place of fear. You can't do it from when you come from a place of lack. You can't do it when you come from a place of scarcity. You hear what I'm saying? So I got back to the drawing drawing board. I told you the same man never crosses the same river twice, meaning you're going through another situation, but you're not at the same awareness as you were when you crossed the river and went through the situation the first time. I said to myself, we're gonna go ahead and do this. So I looked at Carly with tears in my eyes and said, Okay. And if I liken it to a basketball game, it's the fourth quarter, and we're down by 15. Y'all ain't gotta do nothing. Just give me the ball and get out the way. Just give me the ball and get out the way. That's all I'm telling you right now. And we ended up meeting with the accountant at the end of the year, and he said, Here's what you had to get to, and here's what you needed to do. And we ended up surpassing it. He goes, How did you do this? How did you do this? And I looked at him, I said, Focus. Focus and patience. Focus and patience and trust. Focus and patience and trust and consistency. Focus and patience and trust and consistency and accountability. Focus and patience and trust and consistency and accountability and resiliency, meaning I was not going to settle this time around. The reason why I'm telling you all this is because we all have all of these things inside of us. You just have to make up your mind. You have to make up your mind. Nobody's gonna do it for you. You got wounds, you got old programs, you know you got scarcity still living inside of you. You know you have these things that you're still carrying from the past, but ain't nobody gonna do it till you make up your mind. Say, I'm not gonna sit in here and keep living the rest of my life like this. I'm not gonna keep opening up my bank account and over here be feeling scared, wondering, I'm not gonna keep doing it. What do I need to change so I can go ahead and change it? I'm going to do it. Good God Almighty. When they get to my funeral, and whoever delivers the eulogy, if I don't do it, they're gonna say, Well, he died trying. She died trying. She gave everything that she had. So the reason why I'm saying this is because along the journey, we're all gonna have our ups and downs. The ups is what the public's gonna see, is what the world's gonna see, but nobody's gonna really acknowledge the downs. I want to start changing, changing the way we see downs. I want us to start seeing downs as uh the means or the the process that creates the ups. So I know you're going through something right now and it feels like chaos. I know it. That ain't nothing because the universe is uh all it's doing is remodeling you right now. Y'all ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying right now. You going through some bullshit. I don't care who you are or what you are. Look, I don't even need to know where you live at. We all going through something. But all it is is the universe trying to say, hey, oh sweetie. I know with your feeble little egoic mind. I know you want this and you want that, but um how can I say this in a polite way? That won't work. I know. You want to take this rusty, dusty, crusty mindset that you have, and you think, oh yeah, I want to be this and be that. You're going ahead and doing your 369 method. You got your crystals and you're placing them on your third eye. I get it, yeah, yeah, but you're still walking around with that wound that you're not good enough. Oh my goodness. And you say you want to live in abundance, uh, little human. You do realize, sweetie, that you can't have that while you're living as this. Those are what you would refer to as opposites, opposite energies, opposite frequencies. Yeah, go ahead and take that sigh of relief. Go ahead and take it. I know your nervous system is being triggered right now. I know, yep, we purposely encoded your nervous system into your human body so you would feel it, because we know that you're so caught up in your body and the physical mind and the sorry, the physical uh plane. But I'm saying this to get you to realize that in order for you to step into the new energy, you're gonna have to get rid of the furniture of the past. I told Carly, I said, I don't want to bring nothing from this old house. It served its purpose. I said, I want a new bed, I want a new TV, I want new furniture. I'm not sitting or doing nothing that reminded me of this old life. And it's not that I have anything against the old life, it's that the old life has served its purpose. The old life has gotten me to this point. And when you understand how information works in this universe, information is only going to work to a point. I can't keep using the same information to think it's going to progress me to the next point. I have to have a new belief system. I have to have a new paradigm. I have to have a new frequency. It ain't gonna work. What do we say when someone asks church? Look at him over here acting childish. I'm not gonna say somebody in our front office acting childish, but I ain't gonna say what his name is. Somebody acting childish in this country. I ain't gonna say who his name is because I don't want to trigger nobody, but uh we say he's acting childish. You know why he's acting childish? Because he's still acting on the old frequency that don't work. That's why. This is what it is. So when you start realizing that sometimes you just can't take the old with you into the new. This is why it's so hard for us to let go. Oh, it's hard. You don't want to let go of that old version of it. You don't want to let go of that old house. You got a whole, not only you don't have a tupperware, uh, uh, uh, uh, what is it? I don't even know what's a tupperware. Tumperware is what you use for the kitchen, right? I'm saying the wrong thing. You know what it is. That big old bin. You got a big bin full of keepsakes. Instead of having a big bin, you got a whole house full of keepsakes. You gotta let that shit go. Let it go. Because here's the are you ready? Are you ready? You in a new life, sister? Brother, you in a new life. You keep holding on to that old relationship that you know good damn well that relationship wasn't gonna work. You know it wasn't gonna work. And you know what? If we really gonna keep it on, you knew it wasn't gonna work from the beginning. Go ahead and get off. Go ahead and press pause or turn it off. I don't care. Go to the next episode. You know good and well you you know, you knew that that relationship wasn't gonna work. But what'd you do? What do they call that? Uh justification. I'm gonna justify. I'm gonna logically reason to figure out a way this doesn't work, knowing good and well that this doesn't work. And here's what you just did. You just programmed your uh nervous system live in misalignment. You pro you did. You programmed your nervous system to live in uh misalignment, and then you're gonna sit here and pray to the moon. You're gonna pray to God, and you're gonna say, God, please, please help me, please help me. I don't know why all of this stuff is happening. Well, you don't want to create a misalignment. You the one over here still ignoring them red flags, and uh ignoring your intuition. You the one doing it. God looking at you saying, I gave you everything that you needed. You over here asking me, I gave you everything that you needed to clean this up, and you ain't gonna use none of it. You over here talking about God, I ain't got a hammer. I need a hammer to build my house. God's look, what is that on your on your uh on your tool belt right there? What is that? I don't know. So the reason why I'm saying this, that new relationship, that new house, that new job, uh uh, uh, the new partnership. All of this is just a reflection of your new vibration. All of this is a reflection of your new frequency. But hear me when I say this. If there's a death, there's a rebirth. If there's a funeral, there's a graduation. We cannot, we cannot have both. There may be parts of it that you take with you. There may be parts of it that you uh hold on to just to remember. But you can't take the old life into the new. And now here I am this week, reflecting, a little bit more emotional than what I thought I was would be, because it's been a funeral. And I went down to I went down to Mexico and I saw my boy Jesus, and he said, Hey, call me. I said, Okay. And I'm thinking in my mind, like, Hey Suz, I ain't gonna call you. You know I ain't gonna call you. And he said to me, Don't worry about being a burden, call me. Your move is going to be very stressful. I'm like, no, it won't. You kidding me? This is a celebration. What are you talking about? Well, now here I am, and I'm like, oh, I see what he was talking about. He knew before I knew it's gonna be stressful. It's always gonna be stressful every time you let go of an old part of yourself. Good God Almighty. It's always gonna be stressful every time you let go of an old version of yourself. Do we not realize that spiritual relocation is nothing more than the physical act of healing, healing, healing, healing? See, every time you heal, you're just letting go of an old version of yourself. Every time that you move, you leave, you go to a new relationship, you're letting go of an old version of yourself. Hear me when I say this. I told you before, if you're gonna let go of an old, you better make sure you give it as flowers. Why do you think when we have funeral, we always put we always put the bouquet on top of the casket? We go to the gravesite, we're paying homage, we're honoring that old version of ourself because that old version of self is who created the new version of us. If you don't honor that old version, just like in the physical world, those ghosts are gonna come back and haunt you. Do we not realize what ghosts really are in the physical world? A ghost is nothing more than a soul that has not quite yet uh hadn't been over been able to cross over. And they're not here to haunt us. They're not here to hurt you. They really just want to be set free. They want to be released, they want to be given their flowers and say, hey, it's okay for you to transition now. The same goes for these past versions of you. So I realized this week, before I step into a new life, I'm gonna have to go ahead and pay honor, pay homage to the old. I got a bunch of books. I got so many books. I didn't have no books when I moved here. I'm not even lying to you, I probably got 500 books. I got 500 books. I'm over here wondering how am I gonna get these books downstairs? How am I gonna get all these books into this new house? And I said to myself, I'm like, you read all of these in six years? In six years? You read all of these? Well, not all of them. Some of them. Some of them, you know how it is on Amazon. You order a book and you look at the reviews and you think it's gonna be good and you start reading, and you're like, nah, let me go ahead and order one. Carly be like, why do you order four books? Because I know only one of them probably gonna be good. So let me go. And she's like, You need to stop ordering all these books. Yeah, but it's uh helping me ascend. It's helping me to uh enlighten. But I look back, I was ordering these books, and I would spend my whole day reading. I didn't have a job. I was daddy daycare. I was Mrs. Doubtfire. I would do the kids' hair, get them ready for school, take them to school, and then I'd come home. I had no call, I had nobody to talk to. Social media wasn't nothing near, nobody cared what I had to say, so I would just sit and learn, I would read, took out a subscription on Gaia.com on Indiana State Unemployment Unemployment uh uh favor. I would just sit here and learn and study and learn and study and learn and study. I didn't know what I was doing, but now I know what I was doing. My soul needed fertilizer, needed food to awaken and grow. Now, some of us here, some of us are going through a season right now where we don't know, understand, we don't understand what's going on inside of us. Just keep feeding yourself. Keep feeding yourself. And for me, at this time, I'm a Sagittarius slash ophicus. We love knowledge. We love information. And this is how I was feeding myself. And I look back on who I was back then compared to who I was today. If the version of me could have a conversation with the version of me back then, the version of me back then would look at me today and be like, this dude is weird as hell. This dude right here is he seems like he's cool, but he's a weirdo. Like he over here talking about this and talking about that, and he knows this and knows that. But the version of me today is looking back and saying, Thank you. Thank you. I just want to tell you thank you. If it wasn't for you, I don't know where we would be at right now. You carry the load. You carry the pain. You are the one who can't push. I'm talking to myself, but you you're probably talking to yourself too. You're probably the same things that you would say to yourself. I just want to tell you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love you. I do. I'm so grateful for you. This journey that you've been on, this transformation that's taken place. You haven't had it all figured out. You haven't. There have been times when you slipped and you skinned your knees, but this time you didn't stay on, you got back up. And that became proof, that became the testimony for you that you could keep getting up. And we know that we're gonna skin our knees and maybe break a couple bones on the way, but we at least now know how to get up, and I just want to tell you thank you for showing me how to get back up. I want to tell you thank you for never giving up. And there was many times that you wanted to throw in the towel, you wanted to throw in the big towel at one point. You wanted to really say we're done here, but you didn't. So I just want to honor you. I want to celebrate you. And while this may be the end, this is also just the beginning of this new life with me and you together now. Do you see how this healing journey looks? This is why we call it shadow work. We go back into the darkness to go get the parts of ourselves that we've left behind. And those parts of ourselves are scared, sad, lonely. When we go back there and we go get them, we bring them up into the light with us now. And they yearn for the light just like how you yearn for the light. We all do. Some of us yearn for it and we don't know that we learn yearn for it. Some of us have become more accustomed to living in the dark, and it's not that we love the dark, we just don't know anything different. But when you go back and get those past versions of yourself, this is when life can say, you know what? You're ready. You're ready for the new life. Now I have to go ahead and leave you with this. I'm gonna tell you this, because this is nothing more than the story of manifestation of how a man changed his thinking in order to change his life. I told you that whole situation happened when I had asked my parents and they told me no, and I was like, oh man. At that moment, I threw my hands up. I surrendered. I said, I don't care. I don't care if we have to live here for the rest of my life. I'm gonna figure out a way to make myself enjoy each and every day. I'm gonna figure out a way to live from a place of peace. I'm gonna I'm gonna figure this out. And this is actually when I started my ayahuasca journeys. I told myself, you know what? I'm gonna become okay with the worst thing happening. So whatever fear you have, whatever thing that you're concerned about, when you become okay with that worst thing happening, it has no power over you. And now the universe says, finally she let go of it. Now we can give it to her. Now she can have it. And I started to look at all of these things that transpired. Good God Almighty, stay with me here. I'm gonna close this up and wrap this up. Craziest of it all. I told you how I would find charts on numerology and all these things that allows the cleaning up. And when you understand the numerology, uh, you know, all of this stuff. There's a number, number six. The number six is synonymous with changing home. Okay. Now I was sitting here making out my chart for my numerology for my for my year 2025, and my personal year, I was in the number six. Changing home. Now I broke I break my life down into uh set into uh thirds. So I have three different numbers for the year. So my overarching number was six for the year. I said, and I do this, it starts on my birth in December, and I'm like, I'm I was like shaggy, not shaggy, Scooby-Doo. Six. Are we moving? I'm like, well. Then I look I break it down my numbers down into thirds. In the first third, the first four months, it was uh uh uh the number six. And then the next number was the number eight, and then the last number from August to December was the number six again. And I'm like, the f we're gonna move twice? Well, I wouldn't understand what's going on. So anyway, in February, me and my wife started looking at houses. She's like, let's start looking at houses. We're good to go, blah, blah, blah. And we over here looking at houses, and we're looking at houses, and we're looking at houses, and I'm going to all these houses. Hear me when I say this. I just felt nasty going in somebody else's house. I don't know. I could energetically feel somebody, I could look at somebody and feel like I saw a picture, I could feel that person, and I'm like, I can't do this. And it was really hard for me to say that because I didn't want to come across as like, mm-mm, I can't live in anybody's house. You know, I don't want to live in it. I don't want to come across like this pompous sport, but I'm like, energetically, I can't, I can feel somebody's frequency. Holler if you hear me, please. So I told my wife, I said, you know what? I'm not doing it. We just are gonna stay in this house. I'm not moving in nobody else's house. I ain't gonna do it. She said, What do you think we're gonna do? Just build a house? See, building was never, ever something that we want to do because we wanted to hurry up and move, you see. I said, Look, if we got a bill, we got a bill. I ain't no hurry, but I'm not living in nobody else's house. I just can't energetically be in somebody else's space. So we went, I was out of town and we got back, you know, rushed back from the airport, went and looked at a house. And it was a nice house. And then I made my mind up. I told her, I said, I'm not doing it. Don't have me go and look on no more houses if somebody else living. I'm not going. So I went ahead and put my foot down. And then all of a sudden, this idea popped in. I had a good friend, family friends, like a nephew to me. He's a loan officer. And I said, Hey, what do you think about building a house? I said, Yeah, yeah, just do this, do this, do this. All of a sudden, boom, boom, boom. Before I know it, the situation happened. We ended up building a house, but I told you, I said, why do we why is the number six showing up at the beginning of the year and the end of the year? I don't understand. I couldn't understand. Good God Almighty, you all hear what I'm saying. If we were to chart my birth, if you were to chart my birth, if you were to chart, y'all don't hear what I'm saying. If you were to chart my birth from the day that I was born and go all the way to 2025, these numbers would already be in play. It wasn't like, oh, well, this just happened. It was alright, I can go on chart for the next 30 years or what every year my numerological chart is going to fall in. So now I'm sitting here playing, like, I don't understand. So we decide to start building a house. And they started building in that first six that happened at the beginning of the year. And now here we are about to move. The house is completed, and it's the last six of the year. Do you receive? And I said, I sat and reflected. I said, you mean to tell me my life was already laid out? It was already laid out. What the f I was over here stressing, so I said, wait, this was the number six for my whole year, and then six happened twice in the year for four months, and those four months increments were the ones that we built it, and then when we we lived in it. And then I started to add up my number. I'm 42 years old this year. What's four plus two? Six. Then I started to add up the numbers of my address at the house I'm living at right now. When you add them all up and you break it down, it comes to 15, but one plus five equals. And then when you add up the numbers of my new house, that number ends up being 24, and 24 is two plus. And my dog that we got now, bless his soul Boone. We got Boone in the worst time of our life. I cried many a night letting Boone out in the middle of the night when he was just a puppy. Boone was, we always say, we had our first dog, Saber. Saber was like a human. You know when you have a dog and it's just different, it just acts like a human. Boone was not. Boone was full of dog. He was all dog. When we got him, Boone, I let him out to go to the bathroom. I looked in and found out he had dug a hole and was laying in the dirt. I said, Boone, get your raggedy. So I had never had a real dog before. This was Boone. And I developed this ability to like talk to Boone. I know it sounds crazy, but for us who know what I'm talking about, and telepathically, I could talk to Boone and Boone, I would thank Boone and say, Boone, thank you so much. And he said, Dad, I've always been here for you guys. He's like, I came here to help you guys. I came here to help you guys and on his fur. And we weren't even gonna get a dog to let you know. Our dog died on Tuesday. I'm like, I don't want any more dogs. The pain, the pain, the grief of losing a pet. We got boon that Sunday. And we got boon, and he was five, he was one of five puppies, and he was the only one that lived. And when we got him, he was so sick. He was so sick. We took him to the vet. We took him to the same vet that we had to put our other dog down in. So these people were like, when we the vet when we came in, they were like, wait a minute, you were just here earlier this week and you put a dog down. Now you bring this sick dog in. They were like, where did you get this dog from? But we ended up nursing him back to health. And as Boone got older, his fur on his chest formed into the pattern of a heart. And people would meet him and be like, Your dog has a heart on his chest. And I'm like, Yeah, I know. And as I went through the spiritual awakening, I started to be able to communicate with him. I would sit and meditate, and then I would open my eyes, and he would be standing right there in front of me. And Boone's like, I came here to help you guys. Now, the reason why I'm telling you this story about my beautiful dog named Boone is because Boone is here and has been six years old. So I'm telling you all this to let you all know that there is unseen forces that are happening in your life. Don't you even try to rationalize it. Don't you even try to. Now, me, I'm gonna sit here trying to figure it out. I might develop an equation, I might I'm trying, you know me, I got to figure out why. But don't even figure it out. Just trust that there are unseen forces that are guiding you, that are protecting you, that are ensuring that you may get to where you are supposed to be when you were supposed to be there. I am a living testament of it. If somebody would have told me that that would be doing this here six years later, I'd say, you are out of your Mickey fricky mind. There is no way. But now, six years later, I could say I was always supposed to be doing this. And I cannot imagine myself doing anything different. So I'm telling you all, whatever season you're in, whatever transloc transition you're going through, please hear me that the spiritual relocation. Spiritual relocation is a part of your upgrade, it's a part of your ascension. I know that breakup felt like it was the end, but that breakup was nothing more than the pretense of the breakthrough. You had to break your heart. They had to break your heart so it could be broken open. Do you hear how I'm well here? I don't think you hear what I'm saying. I don't think you understand. They had to do this. They had to do it. As a matter of fact, they agreed to do it. They agreed that they would help you. And they would do it in the most divine way. Good God almighty. So I look back now, I tell my past versions, thank you. But I want to tell all those relationships that I s that at the time seemed like it was the worst thing. Those who had crossed me, those who had stolen, those who had done whatever, I just want to tell you thank you. Thank you. Because you too played a part in this divine awakening. You too played a part in this divine consciousness coming online. From the bottom of my heart, I want to tell you thank you, and that I love you. And most importantly, to this past version of me, who will still share their memories. I just want to tell you that I forgive you. I forgive you. I forgive you. Because I realize now that you only did things out of the level of awareness of where you were at. And nothing was ever your fault. Nothing was ever your weight to carry of holding the burden. You didn't have to. It was not your fault. It never was. When we're children, we do things as children. And you were the child version compared to me right now. So I just want to tell you that I forgive you and I love you. And it's only up from here. You know we're about to turn up, right? We about to turn up now. We about to we about to we're about to get into that. We're about to turn up here. From now until eternity. Keep going. And know that I wish you nothing but the best.