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Healing Scarcity and Self-Judgment Through Ayahuasca
What if the scarce mindset you've been battling isn't something you're born with but a behavior learned from past scars? Join me on a personal journey through a transformative plant medicine ceremony in Tulum, where I faced the depths of scarcity and its roots in psychological wounds. This episode uncovers how life guides us on paths of healing, not necessarily where we want to go but where we need to go, to embrace true abundance. By sharing my experience of taking six cups of ayahuasca, I highlight the power of confronting and healing these psychological barriers.
Once you see what you actually are, that you're an infinite, limitless being, you'll see that nothing exists outside of you. I'm your host, derek Grant, and this is the Pathway to your Results Podcast. Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the Pathway to Results podcast, presented by DG Mindset. It is your boy, we are here. It's a pleasure, it's an honor, as always, to be with you. Um, this is actually.
Speaker 1:Probably this podcast is the most live podcast that you will ever hear, live in the sense that I'm recording this yesterday, right? So if you're hearing this and it's Friday, it usually comes out on Friday. I'm recording this on Thursday had some traveling got behind a little bit, but also, too I think a part of it was I wasn't ready to record until today because I still had to go through some things. I told you many times that when I record a podcast, I don't know what content's coming. I have no idea. I can't tell you what's going to be out here in five weeks. It's whatever comes to me, and I guess you can call it channeling I don't know what you want to call it, but today's episode, right? I don't know what you want to call it, but today's episode, right.
Speaker 1:We always talk about abundance, abundance, abundance. And I wouldn't be right if I didn't actually do things the way or talk about the opposite end, because that's usually the way I work through life, right. So if I want to become good at something, I focus on where I'm not good at, because I know if I focus on where I'm not good at it, that's actually going to make me better by doing that. So we talk about abundance right, we got abundance program running, right. We still got day two coming up here of the free two-day live event. We've been talking about abundance and how to embody it, but we have to understand the root of scarcity first, and how scarcity shows up in our lives and, more importantly, why we're scared. So, first of all, I just want to give a shout out to anybody who's listening right now who attended the DG Mindset Experience Retreat to Tulum. The plant medicine ceremony ayahuasca was powerful, transformational. I think we had 10 people there. It was magical, beautiful. So I just want to shout out those and you've really given me hope because we're going to do more of them. We'll do more of them here in maybe late 2025, early 2026. We'll continue to do it to help facilitate the healing.
Speaker 1:But here's what I realized how the scarce mindset, how the scarce mindset comes from a scar, a scar. You have a scar. I ain't talking about Mufasa's scar. I'm talking about what is his name? His real name is Taka. I'm not talking about scar from Lion King.
Speaker 1:I'm talking about an emotional, traumatic wound that happens to you that then creates a psychological scar. It creates a distorted perspective of what we would call a wound. Right, and this is what we have to go back and heal. But I started to realize that all scarcity in life good God, I'm about to get started All scarcity in life will always come from a psychological scar. A psychological wound will always come from a psychological scar, a psychological wound. You did not come into this life coming from a place of scarcity. Scarcity is learned. It is not innate. You are not born with scarcity. Now, some of these wounds that we have, some of them come from past lives. Some of them come from experiences that are happening simultaneously within the quantum realm. But we're just going to deal with this life right now. This is all we're going to deal with when you start to realize that the scarcity in your life is linked to you being scared, and being scared is nothing more than what we call fear. So I'm afraid of something. What am I afraid of? I'm afraid of having to deal with the scar, the wound that took place. Place was the byproduct of the traumatic event. Good, and it's gracious. Y'all ain't trying to hear nothing of what I am saying right now.
Speaker 1:So, look, I stayed behind. I stayed behind in my ceremony facilitating the retreat. I stayed behind. I had two days in the jungle by myself, by myself, with just me and the shaman my shaman, you know, he wears blue jeans and his name is Jesus. Yes, jesus wore blue jeans. You already know that story. But I got to sit in the jungle with him for two days and I went into it with the intention of getting rid of the things that don't serve me anymore, getting rid of the things that hold me back. That was my intention. See, sometimes in life you have an intention, but sometimes life, just like Mother Aya did in this particular time, she said I'm going to get you there, but I'm not going to take you there the same way that you thought you was going to get there, meaning we develop an expectation of what we think it's supposed to look like and how it's supposed to go. But see when you understand how life works, life's going to get you there based on how you need to get there. How you need to get there, not how you want how you need to get there. So I said I want to remove, I want to get rid of the things that no longer hold me back. Right, goodness gracious, that first day I'm going to go ahead and give you my play by play.
Speaker 1:I was in a ceremony. I did six cups. Right Up until that point I'd only done four. Now we're only drinking about three ounces, but it tastes like dirt. It's disgusting. You drink six cups of it, right? I drank two and then Jesus came back, gave me two more, probably about 30 minutes later, and they gave me two more. I'm like man, I drank six already. I never did six. The six. Don't think of it in terms of Western perspective of like, oh, the strength of it. It's based on what's needed.
Speaker 1:Me and Jesus had had a long talk on the way out. There we were talking. He was asking me is there anything traumatic growing up? Did you deal with anything? I said no. I had two parents that loved me. I didn't come from a tumultuous upbringing. He said what's the most traumatic thing you've ever dealt with that you maybe have uncovered. I said, well, I remember I was three years old and my parents used to take me over to a babysitter's house.
Speaker 1:And I would get to the babysitter's house, I would go back to bed in the guest bedroom and if I fell asleep and if I wet the bed, she would take me out of the bed, yank me up out of bed, take me to the kitchen, pull out one of those ironing boards that was in the kitchen and the grits that she would make while the other kids were sitting around, while she was hitting me with his yardstick, and then she'd make me sit down and eat and after that I'd have to go in. I have to go in, like this living room, and I wasn't allowed to watch TV because I had wet the bed. I was being punished, so I'd have to sit and face the wall, crisscross applesauce, and if I turned around, her kids, who were older, would either hit my head against the wall, they'd pull my hair. So this went on. It just kept going and kept going and kept going, and kept going, and kept going.
Speaker 1:So now I was so young I didn't know that this was wrong, so I never told my parents until one day it came to me. I was like 19 or 20 years old. I told my mom. My mom's response was why didn't you tell us? I didn't know it was wrong. So why am I going to tell you? I'm three years old, I don't know, I have no idea. So I'm in this ceremony and I'm not really seeing anything. I'm not really feeling anything.
Speaker 1:But Jesus was asking me like what are you struggling with today, present day? I said well, I feel like. Sometimes I feel like the guilt of what if I don't provide, or what if I don't do this for my family. I let them down. And I told him about this situation in 2019, when I went through this financial hardship, I lost everything and I felt like I let my family down. And I had dreams and aspirations to get to a certain level of basketball and I felt like I let my family down. It was always letting people down, letting people down, letting people down, letting people down. And he said this is the energy of guilt. This is the energy of guilt. I said, yeah, I know, I didn't realize that I feel guilty. So now I grew up with two parents and I love them.
Speaker 1:But here's the reality. My parents grew up in the South. They grew up in a time when it was normal for you to take out a belt or a switch or something and beat your kids and hit them with a belt into getting them, into disciplining them. Now we know better as human beings that shit don't do nothing. They don't do nothing. Anybody like what. So I'm going to beat you and I'm going to hit you with something to get you. It's barbaric, right? I never do this to my kids, but my point of this is this all it did was exacerbate the wound that was below. I'm touching on some stuff. I'm going to go here. I'm going to go here. So if it's offensive, if it's, I apologize in advance, not for your perspective, sorry, not for how you feel about it, but this is the reality of it. This is some conversations that need to be had.
Speaker 1:So I started to see how the abuse at three years old, how it got exacerbated by me getting spankings at home. So now, because I'm getting spankings at home, what does it do to the psychological wound that's already there? The punishment and the consequences of things that you maybe don't have control over. At the age of three years old, I wouldn't pee in the bed consciously, I wouldn't do it on purpose, but here's what ends up happening. It starts creating a psychological wound. Now and now the consequence becomes fearful, fearful. I'm terrified, terrified of the fact that I may have to experience this thing Right.
Speaker 1:So I'm in the ceremony and I'm not really feeling anything. I've been out there about four or five hours and I'm not experiencing anything crazy, but nothing crazy. I'm just maybe a little tired, maybe a little drowsy. I'm just sitting there, eyes closed, and I'm like. I look at Jesus. I said I think I can feel the medicine wearing off, I think I'm ready to go. He's like okay, if you're ready, let's go. I thought I'd go grab my stuff. I go to grab my stuff and it's time for me to leave and I fall to the ground. I fall to the ground and I start crying uncontrollably. I've never seen a human being cry the way I was cried. It came out of nowhere. Tears were just gushing. I mean like a hose, like a faucet out of my eyes, just gushing. I mean like a hose, like a faucet out of my eyes, just gushing out. I'm crying hysterically.
Speaker 1:I could hear myself audibly saying why, why are you doing this to me? Why you were hearing a 42 year old, 3 year old cry. The 3 year old Was crying through the 42-year-old man. He was saying why are you doing this to me, talking to the abuser, talking to all the ones who had maybe created the wounds? Why are you doing this to me? Why he couldn't understand, why would somebody do this? So now here I am, weeping, weeping, weeping like I've never cried before. And then I came to I like transformed back into the man, and I felt this freshness. I felt like I got cleaned. I felt like, you know, when you eat like gum that has, it feels like cool in your mouth. That's how I felt on the inside, like I just I just cleaned out the darkness. And this little boy, this little boy who all he wanted to ask was why, why, why. I just want to know why you're doing this, why are you doing this? Why? This is all he could say. So it was time to leave. It was time to leave, and I thank Jesus for holding space for me in that moment.
Speaker 1:And we get back and we're driving down this road and I start to think about all the places in my life where I felt guilty. All these places in my life where I felt shame. These places in my life where I felt shame, these places in my life where I felt Like I wasn't good enough. I was afraid of judgment and I started to get nauseous. I tell the driver I'm like, pull over, I gotta throw up.
Speaker 1:And I'm in this dirt road in the middle of the jungle in Mexico, dirt road potholes, and all of a sudden I get out and I'm just purging everywhere, six cups of ayahuasca coming out, purging this dirt road. My eyes can't open, I can't see anything. And I hear Mother Aya say get it out, get it out, get it out, let go of this little boy inside of you with these wounds. Get it out of you, let it out. Cars are going by, guys on motorcycles I'm talking about. I can feel the breeze from them, I can feel the exhaust. I don't care at this moment. I just need to purge this version of me, I need to get it out.
Speaker 1:So I get back to my room. In that night, nothing crazy, no vision, no, nothing. I knew I had to go back for the second day. So I go back for the second day. I felt cleansed, I felt refreshed. I actually got to the root of something and he gave me six cups. He gave me six cups in a matter of 15 minutes. He gave me six cups in a matter of 15 minutes. Normally you get four or five cups, it's over hours. He gave me six cups in a matter of 15 minutes. And I'm telling you, my belly is full and I just lay down, I just rest, and all of a sudden Mother Aya comes to me as I'm laying here. Good goodness, just stay with me.
Speaker 1:As I'm laying here, I'm looking at these ants and these ants are crawling all over the ground and one of them came on my mat and I flicked the ant off the mat. And the reason why I flicked the ant off the mat was because I didn't want the ant biting me the mat. And the reason why I flipped the ant off the mat was because I didn't want the ant biting me. So then, once the medicine kicks in, mother Aya says I need you to go walk over to this tree. And I knew which tree she was talking about, because the tree made like an L right, it made this weird shape. She said I need you to go walk over to this tree. Go walk over there right now.
Speaker 1:So I go over to this tree and I didn't want to walk over to the tree. And the reason why I didn't want to go to the tree was because the tree had hundreds of ants crawling all over it. It had hundreds of ants crawling all over so I didn't want to deal with the tree. I didn't want to go there. She said go over there right now. So I started getting nauseous. So I walked over there and she said go ahead and put your arm on the tree. I said I don't want to put my arm on a tree. There's ants all over. She goes no, I need you to feel what it feels like to judge. You're sitting here judging these ants and saying that they're going to bite you and they're going to do this. You're judging them. Put your arm on the damn tree and feel it. So I put my arm on the tree and I lean against it. I'm so nauseous and I got to experience judgment.
Speaker 1:Not judgment from the ants, judgment of myself, judgment of myself. How often do we judge ourselves and we don't even realize that we do it? Every time that you say that you're not good enough, you're judging yourself. Every time that you think that you're not enough. You're judging yourself. Every time that you think that you're not enough, you're judging yourself. Every time that you come from scarcity and fear, you're judging yourself. So she's like I want you to feel what this feels like.
Speaker 1:So then, all of a sudden, I see inside of my gut, I see my gut and the faces, and the faces were shame, it was guilt, it was judgment, it was all of these things that are living inside of me. She said this is where they're living, this is what's going on, this is what you need to tend to. So now, all of a sudden, I have this vision where I turn into the Black Panther, right, turn the Black Panther, I jump down my throat, I go down into my gut and I'm just trying to get rid of all of these snakes, all of these snakes that are being eaten by this Venus flytrap Stay with me here. And I realized that these snakes were the fears. These snakes were being eaten by these plants, these things that seem so, so harmless. We all have these things inside of us that seem so harmless.
Speaker 1:Every time that you cower yourself, every time that you have a fear of trying something, every time you say, oh well, no, I can't do that, that costs too much or no. Every time that we diminished our divinity, this is us eating ourselves. This is us judging ourselves. So I'm not going to go too much into it any deeper, because it gets pretty deep. But here's my point of this. My whole point of this podcast was to get you to realize that it's the Holy Trinity, the Holy Trinity of our wounds. It's going to be judgment, it's going to be shame, it's going to be guilt. These are all of the things that keep us in these lower states of living in scarcity. So I just had to realize I had to go back to the very first version that I can remember, at three years old, and find him and give him what he needed. And here's how it showed up in itself and in my life If you feel guilty and you feel like you have to please people, it's because there is a wound from your past where a traumatic experience you felt guilty for you just being who you are.
Speaker 1:Good God, almighty, you ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying. At some point you may have been punished, you may have been disciplined, something may have happened for when you were just being who and how you were, that created a mental response, a mental narrative in your mind that you said I can't just be who and how I am, because if I am who and how I am, I may be different, I may be punished, there may be consequences. I can't be who I am. So now I'm not being who I am. I developed this mechanism, the survival mechanism, of pleasing you. I will do whatever it has, whatever I have to do, to ensure that I please you, because if I don't, I'm going to create another scar, I'm going to create another wound. Something quote unquote bad will happen.
Speaker 1:So I started to see all through my life how this manifested itself, how it manifested itself and how I lived such a fraction of my life of caring what people think. The reason why I cared what people think was because at some point, I had to care what people think, because if I didn't care what people think, the three-year-old didn't feel safe. So why am I saying this to you today? This journey that you're on, that we're on, because we're all on a simultaneous individual journey.
Speaker 1:Sometimes you need to know that it isn't your fault. That's what the three-year-old needed to hear. He needed to know that it wasn't his fault, so he didn't have to carry guilt anymore. He didn't have to carry anybody else's guilt. Every time someone shames you in any way, shape or form, they make you feel less than they'll say something. They're not shaming you, they're just showing you the shame that's inside that you were already projecting and judging upon yourself.
Speaker 1:See, when you realize that this is a one player game, there was no Luigi, it was just Super Mario Brothers. There's nobody else but you, and you start to realize, wow, I've been judging myself. I've only been seeing a fraction of myself. Yeah, I did it out of scarcity. Maybe I did it out of survival, but here's my point to you Mom didn't give you the love that you needed. Something traumatic happened in your life that you would have never, ever in a million years, asked for it, but maybe it did happen. Maybe right now you just need to know that it isn't your fault. So this became therapeutic for me. This became therapeutic for me that night, and since then, this became therapeutic for me that night, and since then it's only been four days of telling myself it wasn't your fault, it wasn't.
Speaker 1:These were the cards that you were dealt though. It ain't your fault, but it's your responsibility now what you going to do with it. It's not your fault. Somebody gave you a basketball that was flat. Now you can't play the game, or you can look at it and say I still got a ball, I just got to put some air in it, I just got to give it a little bit of life. If you can hear this right now, if you are hearing my voice right now in space and time, that means you have an opportunity. You still have a chance. There's still a possibility for you to put some life into your life. And here's the deal Even if you do have wounds that maybe you feel like they're your fault, they're still not your fault because there was no one to blame. This was all a part of your divine journey.
Speaker 1:So this is where I'm telling you from my level and from my experience. We've always talked about how you got to go back, but when you start to realize that these past versions of you that were scared because of a scar and they created scarcity, that's who I got to go back to. I got to find it and, look, I'm going to be honest with you this past week. I'm like we got some retreats here in 2025. And I told my wife. I said I'm done. I'm done. If it ain't plant medicine retreat, I'm not throwing it. I'm not doing it Because I got to see how profound it heals and how, if you take it sacred and it's not recreational it will oh my goodness. So this is where I'm at from here on out. For the rest of these days, that's all I'm going to do.
Speaker 1:Continue to help people heal and use this medicine as an avenue, use this medicine as a resource. But for everybody who's listening right now this mindset that you have around scarcity you still have the power. You still have the ability to move past it. You still have the ability to heal the wound that created the scar that led you to living in fear, that created the scarcity. You still have the power and if there's anything, if there's anything I can ever give you in this existence, please know that you will always have the power and you always had the power.
Speaker 1:It was up to you to do it. Go and do it. Mother Aya told me and she showed me what I got to do. She showed me. I know what I got to do and a lot of it has to do with stepping into these spaces and doing those things that are uncomfortable and not taking on somebody else's shame, not feeling like I need to please somebody, not feeling like I need to carry somebody else's guilt, and this is going to ruin a lot of relationships and the dynamic of what they were. I'm just telling you right now there's going to be some shifts, there's going to be some changes, but this is all a part of your evolution. So maybe now, once you get to this level of healing, you get to the root of where this guilt is. Maybe now you don't feel the responsibility to please somebody and tell them what they need to hear. Or maybe you don't feel the need to go out and do things with people who maybe you don't even resonate with to begin with, because now you didn't need their approval, you don't have to feel guilty not getting it. Do you see how powerful this is? So this is what I'm telling you Don't carry somebody else's guilt. Do not carry somebody else's guilt. Do not carry somebody else's shame.
Speaker 1:I told somebody that was no longer going to engage in business activities with them. They said why. I've done everything for you. I've done this. I said no, no, you're not. You ain't going to see here. Put no shame on me. You caught me too late.
Speaker 1:If you would have caught me two weeks ago, I might feel bad, I might feel guilty, I might you know what I might hold on to this and change my mind, but you ain't going to do it right now. No, you're not. Wait, what did my mom used to say? Talk to the hand, because the face don't want to listen. I said no, absolutely not. Matter of fact. We done. You ain't getting none of my energy anymore. I am finished. Is that a word? If it's not, I just made it up. I'm done. You're not getting my energy or my attention anymore.
Speaker 1:So you can go and text me, you can call me, you do whatever you need to do, but you ain't going to get the energy of guilt. You don't need to please anybody. See, we have a fear of people pleasing, of not pleasing people, because we're going to feel bad, we're going to feel guilty. So guess what ends up happening? You surround yourself with people who need to be pleased by you. Do you see how this works? So if you are struggling with pleasing people, please know you're just moving in the energy of guilt. And if I'm moving in the energy of guilt, that's because there's a fear. And if I'm moving in a fear that means there's a scar. Because I'm scared because there is something that had happened that I need to deal with. Spend your energy on that. Don't spend your energy in living in scarcity. Spend your energy on finding the scar. Do we see how this works? And the game will change.
Speaker 1:And here's the beauty of it. Life's going to give you something. Life's going to give you something. It's going to show you something. It will give you something to see, to see if you are going to step into this new version of you, who doesn't need someone else's approval of it in order for it to be. Who itself? Because it wants to check you. It wants to do a vibe check to make sure that you're really on your path of healing, right, because we don't know if we're really healing until something triggers us to see if we healed. Goodness gracious, y'all ain't trying to hear nothing I'm saying right now. Aiden, you ain't? I might as well go ahead and get off and turn the thing off, because you're not trying to hear what I'm saying. It's going to test you. It's going to test you.
Speaker 1:The moment that I healed this child, it didn't need to carry the guilt anymore because the babysitter who was doing this. She was doing it from her unconscious wound, her scars that she wasn't aware of. Do you see how this works? So now I don't have to carry that anymore. I don't care if it's death, I don't care if it's betrayal, I don't care if it's abandonment, I don't care if it's rejection, I don't care what it is. You don't have to carry somebody else's guilt and shame in your life. You don't have to Give yourself permission for at least that much for the rest of your existence. Say I'm not carrying it no more, I'm not.
Speaker 1:This is how ancestral generational trauma gets passed down. It gets passed down because somebody does not say you know what. I'm done with this paradigm. I'm done with this thought the way this, I'm done with it. I'm not carrying this no more. I got too much light to bring into this world. I'm not going to carry the darkness anymore.
Speaker 1:It's a choice that we got to make, though we all get the choice, but know that the moment that you do make this choice and you go back and heal, guess what light's going to do. It's going to throw you something and guess what You're going to feel like. You got to please somebody and it's not. It is not for you to fail, it was for you to see the level of growth, to see where you were at. So when someone, when I had healed this little, this boy, this three-year-old inside of me and I gave him what he needed he just needed to know that it wasn't his fault and he didn't have to carry the unconscious wounds that was being projected on him anymore. Once I gave him that, the universe said here, have somebody tell them, have somebody tell him how he's let them down, shame him, make him feel guilty. And I felt none of it, zero. The test was passed, the vibe was checked.
Speaker 1:You have graduated to a new level of awareness, to a new frequency, and now you have a new level of freedom when you don't need, when you don't need somebody else's approval, because you have healed a part of you that was living in guilt for not approving, for people not approving of it, and shame. Now you're moving to the energy of freedom. I want you to think of the analogy of you carrying somebody else's weights. You're at the gym right now. You're at the gym and you know what you can lift, you have to do your workout, but you go pick up somebody else's weights and that motherfucker is heavy, and you still got to pick out your stuff. So now you got somebody else's weights, You're carrying somebody else's shame. You're carrying somebody else's trauma. You're carrying somebody else's lack of self-worth. You're carrying somebody else how they feel about themselves. They projected on you and you're carrying it unconsciously, and you still got to carry your own stuff. And this is why it gets heavy. This is why it gets hard. This is why you feel like giving up. We don't even realize that we ain't carrying just our stuff, we're carrying other people's.
Speaker 1:I'm telling you right now, in space and time, in 2025, you ain't got to carry nobody's stuff but yours. And guess what? Those people who expected you to carry their bags, those people who expect you to carry their weights oh, they're going to be big mad. Please believe, oh, please believe that you're going to trigger them. Please believe that you're going to make them feel like they less than, and you're going to say like I'm not doing this anymore. What I thought you were, you said you were, and now you've just fulfilled your divine purpose of helping them to do their healing. And here's the beauty of life as you trigger me and help me to heal, and I heal and I stand on business and I am who I am and I do what I know I am and I be who I know I can be. That's going to trigger you, and then you will have the choice to go on your journey.
Speaker 1:Do you see how this works? So if there's anything I could tell you, if there's any piece of advice or there's anything I tell you to move forward, please know that you ain't got to carry nobody else's guilt and shame. You don't have to anymore. I just realized in my life how many things I don't do, how many things I won't talk about, how many things I don't do, how many things I won't talk about, how many things I won't post because I'm so worried about what if I don't get their approval? What if they're going to be mad? What if they unfollow me? What if they don't? And I realized that was this little boy. This little boy is so afraid of being rejected. This little boy is so afraid of not being good enough because it had a literal scar, a physical experience through trauma that made it feel like it wasn't. But now he knows it's not his fault, but it is his responsibility. Now, sorry, it's my responsibility. So I told him I got you, I got you, I got you. What I didn't tell you was two weeks before that.
Speaker 1:I was at my son's basketball game and in between the games I was sitting in the corner. I was just sitting there hanging out and this little boy came up to me and he had a basketball. He was just dribbling. It was just me off hanging out and this little boy came up to me and he had a basketball. He was just dribbling, like it was just me off by myself. This little boy I don't know whose child it was he just came up to me. I'm like no-transcript, you go, man, I see you. So then, finally, I had the courage.
Speaker 1:This was pre-ayahuasca ceremony. I had the courage to say hey, buddy, how old are you? And he held up two fingers. But then he got confused and he held up three. And this little African-American boy held those fingers and I thought it was funny that he held up two, but he was like wait, hold on, no, it's three. And he said I'm three years old. Goodness gracious, good God almighty, good God, almighty.
Speaker 1:If you don't see what I'm saying right now, if you don't see the synchronicity that the universe gave me when this little boy came up to me out of nowhere and he just wanted to be seen by me and he was three years old. He just wanted to be affirmed and be told by this version who was older. Do we not see that this was the same thing that the ceremony was trying to tell me? That the three-year-old just needed to be seen, he just needed to be told, he just needed to be affirmed, he just needed to be, he needed to be validated by me, not by anyone else. And the universe had presented this to me in the shape, in the situation, weeks before, but I couldn't receive it. I couldn't receive it, I couldn't see it.
Speaker 1:So, when I was sitting here, validating that little boy, that three-year-old, do we not know that this was the universe giving me the higher self, the version of me behind the bookshelf, pushing over the books, giving myself what I knew I unconsciously needed? Good God, almighty, you aren't trying to hear nothing that I'm saying right now. So we see, we are always on this journey being guided. We are always on this journey being guided. That little boy could have went anywhere. That little boy could have went anywhere in this world, that three-year-old. And he came right up to me, feet away, and I thought, thinking to myself, why is he doing this? I don't even know this kid. Who is this boy? It was the energy of me because I didn't know that boy.
Speaker 1:And when I went and sat in that jungle and I got to know that boy, and I got to see that boy and I got to cry with that boy, I got to validate that boy. Good God, almighty, that was what I was looking for. That's what I was looking for. That's what that little boy was looking for when he came over to me. I was looking for myself. And this is what you're doing. We just playing the infinite game of hide and go seek with ourselves. We're just playing the infinite game of hide and go seek with ourselves. Go find it. Go find it, see if you can find yourself. Know that when you find yourself, you're going to have to go into the darkness.
Speaker 1:This is the other part Mother Aya showed me. She showed me the dark and the light. I went to the dark and the dark felt good. She said now go into the light. I said the light's boring. She said go into the dark again. And when I went back into the dark it was all my fears. It was the judgment, it was the shame, it was the guilt, and it was presented in all these snakes, these black mambas. These black mambas stayed with me, good God, almighty. They were black mamba snakes. And all these snakes, hundreds of them, all of a sudden started to get in unison, they started to get in order.
Speaker 1:In this vision, when I was in the ceremony, when I was knee deep and Mother Aya was with me, she showed me all these snakes and they got in order. She said this is what you were supposed to do. You were supposed to go into the darkness and tame the snakes. Tame the fears, tame the guilt, tame the shame, tame the scarcity, tame the scars. Go in there and tame it, but you don't have to become one with the mambas. The snake, the mama, they say, is the most deadly snake.
Speaker 1:So I have to tell you this because, if the other synchronicities, my son asked me for a pair of shoes and I told him. I said you can have these shoes, but you don't have to work for them. You got to show me that you're going to upkeep everything that you put on your vision board. I'm going to teach you how to keep your word and take action. He said I work out five days a week. I said, okay, cool, I'm going to be here to help you. And he said I want these shoes. These shoes are called the year of the mamba.
Speaker 1:Good God, almighty, I'm in this ceremony and she showed me all of these mamba snakes and what they represent. We all have snakes, we all have scarcity, we all have judgment, we all have unworthiness. We all have all of these things. We all have all of these things, but this is the year of the mamba. This is the year of the mamba meaning you have to learn how to tame them and you can only tame a snake by going and actually being with it. I can't tame a snake here, from where I'm at and think I'm going to tame a snake living in India. I'm going to have to go, be right in front of that snake.
Speaker 1:So my friend in 2025 started the journey of taming those snakes. My brother Cope told me. He said it's the year of the mamba. Go and do it. I'm going to do all I can to help. I'm on a new mission. I'm on a new journey. This is the new me.
Speaker 1:What is that song? I'm on a new level. I got it. I know now, when I'm on a deeper level, what I'm here to do with humanity. The energy is going to be turned up, to be turned turned too. Turned up now, because I can see it. And that three-year-old boy he's healed. So keep going, keep figuring out who you are. Don't hold nothing in. Don't hold it in. Go find it, go seek it. We're going to leave here at some point. This physical existence. We might as well get it while we're here. You're going to be taken out of the game. You might as well shoot that motherfucker while you're on the court. Go ahead and shoot it. We're on the court right now. Who cares if you miss it? Who? Because even through shooting, you will learn what your form is like. Keep shooting that thing, keep going Until next time. I wish you nothing but the best on the pathway to your results. You.